first day
@elphobia
FIRST DAY OF COLLEGE !!
hello ! quick intro before I get into it: you aren't required to read this at all. this is merely being written out of pure want and desire to "document" my life on the internet since my journaling hasn't been going well xD I thought maybe, if it was digitally created, I'd have more interest on continuing it. a public digital diary, if you will. so here we are . . . I guess . . .
night before, I was already in absolute CHAOS. bro I kid you not I was ranting messaging ten different people because I was SOOO anxious !! after 3 (short) months of laying down on my fluffy bed I was forced to go back to school again. but like. in college. not just school, but you know? the one that decides my entire future?! so thats fun : ) exciting, truly
8 am class I woke up at 4 am because of how ANXIOUS I was. I even forgot my seventeen necklace despite preparing all my things from the night before. also I ended up wearing my uniform (when I literally said I wasn't gonna) because I couldn't invent a new outfit on the spot. anxious.
I arrived at 7something and I sat down w my blockmates. it's so weird !!! first of all, culture shocking humor. def did not expect full-on laughter early in the morning. they painted their nails while we waited. and I just sat there with them awkwardly with my goojodoq at 20 air power. I was also clicking the HELL out of my matcha clicker lolololol. theyre very upfront with the humor and stuff but I couldnt rlly just join in like that :/ they acted like they already knew each other and teased each other so I just couldnt help but feel out of place LMAO but yk what !!! first day jitters !! its fine its fine
FIRST CLASS
I sat with the only person I spoke with for more than five minutes. we sat like, 3rd row from the back and it was a HORRIBLE decision. couldnt hear the prof's soft voice, and couldnt see the laptop. she chose 9 random students to introduce themselves and I proved once again that my guardian angel was on my side because I didnt get picked #YAY
my blockmates kept entering which was when we realized we lacked seats. cuz yk. we're a class of 60 students. so glad I wasnt class rep cuz they went and borrowed more chairs from different rooms lol the classroom was PACKED AS HELL
my eyes kept falling down cuz I couldnt hear and the ac was so nice and comfy so I kept drinking water to wake myself up lmfao
SECOND CLASS
terror. prof.
closed the door with power and told us to lock the other door. I'm gay but I straightened my back for this prof. just spewing all the things we needed to know about. ZERO-BASED GRADING. am I cooked? probably. but as someone who kinda highkey just excels in academic stuff and fails and everything else I wasn't *that* scared. my thought process was like, "so I just have to study. okay."
then we were suddenly asked if we were part of the lgbtq family. couple of us raised our hands (NOT EVEN 10 PEOPLE OUT OF 60?? R U KIDDING) and MY PROF SHOWED THEIR ID LACE AND THEY WERE GAY TOO HELL YEAHHHHHH !! that made me even less nervous cuz they're one of #us
I was fighting my cold that time cuz we went from a cold room to a much less colder room WHICH REMINDS ME !!! OF MY RANT !!! that it was LOWKEY my elementary fantasy to switch rooms for each class cuz thats what I always saw on western shows . BRUH . never freakin MIND !! the philippines is a synonym of fire and by the second period I was already catching a cold. I was tearing up swallowing my coughs bro oh my god
we were dismissed 2 hours earlier than the actual time since we just discussed first day stuff. our prof then reminds us that we have 7 units each week for this major sub. life is an endless hell so fun
LUNCH
trigger warning I'm a chud <3
I went with an old acquaintance to go pee on the FURTHEST BUILDING POSSIBLE bc all the near bathrooms either had queues or were just full. but so was may gallbladder so we went to the 3rd floor of a different college just to pee. and the cubicle I entered had a 5-peso coin in it. literally what
I then realized I still have over 2 hours of vacant before my next class, so skipping lunch wasn't an option as much as I wanted it to be. I bought lunch from the nearest store and I also bought fries and a cookie. it was hell waiting for the food bc IT WAS SCORCHING HOT AND I WAS HUNGRRRYYY
when I came back to the classroom, the same friend group from the morning with the impeccable humor were also there. they saw I bought a cookie and ASKED FOR A BITE. my introverted and shy ass cant say no to anybody so so I just laughed it off and ate my bacon and rice lunch. my blockmate then kept saying they were craving food (I think it was sioami?) so they kinda left me alone ish.
then the other blockmate asked AGAIN for a bite but it was a 59-peso cookie I bought w my own money ????? so since I cant say no I just offered my fries instead. they refused it but I kinda care about my image lolol so I insisted they get some fries. I kinda dislike those people with loud personalities because their energy overpowers the quiet ones like me and we have no choice but to submit cuz theyre like that. I sincerely hope theyre not actually like that and we can get along well since they seem nice despite.
I killed time by talking with my old acquaintance from elem who's now my blockmate !! so we kinda glossed over elem to shs memories since we never crossed paths since 6th grade despite studying at the same school during jhs. unfortunately it wasnt enough and it was still vacant so I ultimately did my favorite hobby which was sleeping. I slept.
and when I woke up, there was still an hour left.
LAST CLASS
we went upstairs for our last class and it was again a first-come first-serve basis which left my blockmates to sit on the floor when there were no chairs left. our last prof was the nicest of them all I might say, and I was highkey excited to learn from that class. I was still sleepy and sweating bullets but so was my prof, so it was barely an hour when we got dismissed.
I went home IMMEDIATELY and slept. I currently have a cold bc im very sensitive to temp/weather/season changes but we still ball !! I'm typing this before I wake up again tomorrow for another day in college. my load is heavier tomorrow so im just gonna kill myse
- sleepy el