NieR:Automata novel: Ending portion of Eve's last narrative
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呼んでも答えてくれなかった。揺さぶっても起きてくれなかった。
早く再生させなきゃって思ったけど．．．できなかった。
Even when I called him, he didn't answer. Even when I shook him, he didn't wake up.
I've got to hurry up and resurrect him, I thought…but I couldn’t.
にぃちゃんが死んだ。アンドロイドがにぃちゃんを殺した。
Brother was dead. The androids killed him.
最初は何が何だか、わからなかった。だって、にぃちゃんがいなくなるなんて、考えた事もなかったから。生まれたときから、にぃちゃんがいたから。ずっと、にぃちゃんがいたから。
At first, I had no idea what was what, because I'd never even thought that brother would be gone one day. Ever since I was born, brother was with me. He had always been with me.
にぃちゃんはもう動かない。二度と遊べない。
やっと、「にぃちゃんが死んだ」って事の意味がわかった。そしたら、びっくりするくらい涙が出た。喉の奥が勝手に震えて、勝手に声が出た。
胸のあたりが、ぎゅっと痛くなった。痛くて痛くて、俺は床を転げ回った。それでも痛くて、テーブルに頭をぶつけた。ぶつけたところが痛くなって、頭がぼうっとした。俺はもっと頭をぶつけた。そうしないと、頭の中がぐちゃぐちゃになりそうだったから。
Brother won't ever move again. He can't ever play again.
The meaning of 'brother was dead' finally hit me. Then, an almost startling amount of tears came out. The back of my throat trembled on its own, and my voice came out on its own.
My chest clenched tightly in pain. It was so painful that I writhed about on the floor. Even then it was still painful, so I bashed my head onto the table. The place where I hit it hurt, and my head was in a daze. I bashed my head some more. Because if I didn't do that, it felt like the inside of my head would become a mess.
どうして、死んだんだ？
Why did you have to die?
にぃちゃんが生まれたときは一人だったけど、すぎに二人になって、死ぬまでずっと二人だった。
俺はうまれたときから二人だったけど、今は一人で、死ぬまでずっと一人なんだ．．．。
俺、知ってたんだ。にぃちゃんは、俺の事よりも、もっと夢中になってるモノがあるって。
俺がにぃちゃんをすきだったほどには、にぃちゃんは俺の事を好きじゃないって。
俺はにぃちゃんを、にぃちゃんだけをずっと見てたから、わかってた。それでも、一緒にいたかった。にぃちゃんが居てくれたら、それだけでよかった。
Brother was alone when he was first born, but he immediately had me. He had me up until he died.
I had brother with me ever since I was first born, but now I'm alone, and until I die I'll stay alone forever…
I'd always known. I knew that, more than anything about me, brother had something else he was much more crazy for.
For all I liked brother, he didn't like me back the same amount.
Since the beginning, all I've ever looked at is brother, so I knew. But even so, I wanted to be with him. As long as brother would be with me, I was fine with just that.
ねえ、にぃちゃん。ぼく、たたかう事はきらいじゃないよ。
だけど、にぃちゃんがきずつくのは、イヤだよ。
にぃちゃんがいなくなるのは、もっとイヤだ。
だから、ふたりで、どこか、しずかなところに．．．。
Hey, brother. I don't mind fighting, you know?
But I don't want you to get hurt.
And losing you is even worse.
So, let's go somewhere together, to a quiet, peaceful place...
ニィチャン ノ イナイ 世界ナンテ ナクナッテ シマエ
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